why only now?…

We can have very strong feelings for people, but it doesn't mean we should act on it. There will always be struggles between the heart and mind. For myself, i'm a person who tends to follow her heart, a lot. Then there are times when I need to think logically. Yet again i'm notorious for not thinking before I speak or act.

Feelings are hard to get rid off, but be reminded, feelings don't always last. What the heart wants isn't always what the mind wants. Still we keep thinking about these feelings, breaking them down and looking at them over again. sometimes it hurts other times we look at them blankly. Feelings, emotions, can really screw around with your perception though. It can cause you to lose focus on goals in your life.

People sacrifice a lot of things to follow their heart. The outcome can either be good or bad. I guess this is why we put a lot of thoughts in our feelings. It's hard to tell the difference between love and lust. Like in my previous post about finding "the one." How do you know? How can you tell? What is it that you're meant to feel when you find them? There's just too many questions to ask. How can you trust what you're feeling right now? Have you noticed how we don't really choose carefully who we fall in love with, yet we take our time to carefully choose our enemies? Love, is unpredictable.

Currently i'm raged by a million thoughts which I thought I had forgotten. Really I don't want them in my mind, but they are there. I can keep denying it to myself, I can distract myself, but they will always float back. My body isn't handling it well. There's so many thoughts which I wish I could just tell to go away. My mind is in a jumble, my heart is yelling out insults and pulling rude gestures at it. My "feelings" are extremely strong. I've tried everything possible to suppress them, but they've always been there. Really I just wish I could die, but it's pretty much craziness. The only question I can ask myself is, "Why?"

As strong as feelings can be we have to have the right reasons to make the right decisions. The mind and heart are like split entities. They like to argue with each other and sometimes they like to agree with one another. So it's confusing when you want to act on your heart's desires, but your brain is screaming "NO" at you.

God Bless & Peace Out!