A stupid mixed emotions.

Long Lost

In a dream
I can be anything
When I close my eyes
I can remember what I once had
But now you’re gone
I’m looking for you
Don’t let me fall into the darkness
The way you gave me life
I had once thought was meaningless
But you gave me hope once again
You said we would always keep each other alive
But you tried to take your life away
Leaving me alone once again
In the darkness
I lay here and cry
Hoping maybe these tears will bring you back
In my dreams we can talk forever
I just want to be with you
But when I wake up
You are gone
My first love
And my only
When they let you out
I will stand by your side
They say they love you, or they try to help
Just making it all worse
They just don’t get you
But in those dreams I can talk to you
We will laugh about those times
And even cry
I miss you more
Only a few weeks left
And maybe you will say anything that comes
They will say were too much to be
A pair that causes no good
I was once in darkness
You brought me light
The bulb has burst leaving a fallen night
A dreamless night
Bring me back my light
A tear runs down my cheek
Let me close my eyes
And fall away
So I can dream some more
For when I wake up
Its just may not be a dream anymore
Ill grave that hand
You will pull me up
From this darkness
And back into your light
Those eyes they glow an eerie mist
Because when I see you
I see the world and future
So before I die
Kiss me goodnight
Just kiss me goodnight


I Want To Be Happy

I want to be loved
I want to belong
Don’t want to cry alone
I want to laugh
Don’t want to cry
My days away
I want to be happy
I want to smile
I want my life
To be worth while …


Blinded

Standing in a meadow
Where no one can see her
Standing in a meadow
No one wants to be her
Standing in a meadow
Alone except for her
She is blinded
That’s what they say
She is blinded
But she know its ok
She is blinded
By love each and every day


Giving My Heart to You

I found you
At last
Through all of
My past
I’ve been searching
For someone like you
You’re not perfect
But that’s the way I want you
And your true
Oh but you were stolen
From me
I wish I’d have told you
I wish you could see
That my heart
I was giving you
To someone that’s not perfect
Because that’s just how I like you


Every Time

Every time I talk to you
I forget the words
That I was going to say
It is then I know I love him
All the words you say to me
I goof up and say a stupid thing
But when you say you care
It gives me such a rush


You Don’t Love Me

I realize
When you talk to me
You don’t love me
No you don’t love me
You never think of me
I’m left here alone
And alone I cry
I’m missing you
What should I do
I stand here and think of you
I even dream
Of you too
I see your face when I close my eyes
And when I talk to you
I realize
You don’t love me
And you never have


Them

People are always
Who they are not
They are never happy
With what they’ve got
They can never be real
Or let people see the way they feel
They always want what they get
If they don’t seem cool
They start to fret
Well I can see
I don’t want to be like that
I want to be more like me


Letter to Myself

Save yourself the heartache
Save yourself the pain
Save yourself the trouble
Don’t fall in love again
All you get is heartbreak
All you do is cry
All you get is heartache
And you just wish that you could die
Every time you see the guy
Your heart breaks again
Till you want to cry
But you still pretend to be nice
You feel like
You’re starting to fall
Like you’ve been slammed into a wall
Your breathing is slowing down
You lay there trying to scream
But you can’t make a sound
You lay there silently
Sobbing
And all of a sudden
Your head starts throbbing
You wonder why me
Oh what did I do
You didn’t fall for me
But I fell for you
You’re not so perfect
You’re weird like me
The way you act
In the arts
I’ll tell this to myself
I’ll never let you steal
My heart ever again
From now until forever
I’ll only call you friend
But if you promise not to brake my heart
I’ll trust you enough to borrow it


Lovers Lost

Tears stream down my face
My tongue is tied
I cannot speak
I wonder if I’ll live another day
Or for what this price I pay
My life is crumbling
Down on me
Things block my face
I cannot see
Stuff in my throat
Makes it so I cannot scream
I sit here wondering
If I will die
I sit here
And silently cry
I cannot breath I’m losing oxygen fast
One second, two seconds,
Three seconds pass
I sit here
Gasping for air
Breathing right now
Is my only care
When will someone
Find me
When will someone
Set me free
All this started
When he said no
When he said
I couldn’t do
People say it’s a Lovers Loss
But the loss isn’t mine
Because I will love to the end of tim...