Sunsets of Yesterday

Things you never have known, never heard, never saw and most of all you never felt;
surely you never knew what you have been missing till it’s gone. You regret that you
haven’t given him a little time to cherish the bond. But it’s never to late.. I hope.

I used to remember way back you don’t want us to go home late because we’ll never
know the danger in the streets and we can’t trust the people around us. I’m used to
ignore you, there were times I was thinking you don’t want us to have fun or meet
friends and just want us to stay and bore ourselves at home. This made me rebel
against you. The more you imprisoned me home the more I tried to go home late and
sneak out at night.

Until I started my life at your back; Doing things I never had done and never thought I
could. Curiosity really kills especially if it satisfies my freedom. Yes I thought I was
free, free to do what I want; go wherever I want to go and be with any person I want to.
But as time passed me by I started to regret that living. There are times when I was so afraid and you have no one to comfort me, I have these questions that none could answer and I experienced unbearable pain that none was there by my side.

Form the looks of it now; though unscathed I am still hurting inside and though untamed I long to be loved. The scars of the past ache and tears keep flowing every night. These tough time I remember you “Dad nobody wants to love your baby”, I cried out. Your little princess had been wounded by those wicked princes who took pleasures of her innocence. I can no longer hear her laugh; I cease to see her smiles. She had her own world and nobody wants to be apart of it.

I can hardly keep up with the pace of life because I continue to dwell on my past that keeps on haunting me. The heat days were ground sweats while lazy dreaming body too sleepy to move just stray. The cold nights were darkness was defied by colored lights and wasted soul’s lust to drink their life away. Waking up on shambles of host you just stumble into and trying to run home before daylight catches you. Burning lines, mosquito bites and late night shows while the other end of the line was already plotting his lies on you. Extravagance on every happy outs were every sweat from your toil been wasted on insensitive souls who never cared at all. And most of all the promises that have been given, broken and I keep on forgiving. All these for a piece of happiness that I longed to possessed.

All the while I was blinded by the flashy lights of desire that I have forgotten what I already have. What I have adhere was totally here with me and now He confiscated you. I have never really told you that I love you. I dreamt of you I already ask for forgiveness and hope you really did as what you have said in my dream. And yes I will change just like what I have promise you. Thank you for everything. I know your always at our side.