Ever After Ends

No one wants to have a sad ending but there’s no such thing a happily ever after.
I was running away without think where to go and until when should I run I just want to get away from here, from everybody and most of all from you. I keep stumbling on strangers who offered their hands but just like anybody they wanted something in return something I can’t give them.
If I tried to indulge myself on every opportunity I wonder what could have been left of me now. Why can’t they need me because they wanted to give me something instead they needed me because they wanted something from me. Is it how the world works now?
It’s happening once again. History is just repeating on to me. Am I to be blame? Yes I know I should be the one to be blame. I was careless and I never really learned. I keep on rushing on love and look where it took me. I believe in your words but tears flowed in my eyes. But in the end I should have known; you where just a boy but I expected a man out of you.
You have said your goodbyes I didn’t mind for it is what I’m dying to hear just let me have my peace once again. Yes you have hurt me I have cried to it but please I’m not begging you anything because when it ends it’s really over. I don’t usually look back to it. I don’t mind my loneliness again I’m used to live my life, I breathe and I live. I could say that I had enough for myself to live and yet why is it that I’m still incomplete?
Hope someday you’ll remember me this way: ea is sweet, she’s caring, thoughtful, she’s special, she’s my friend and I’m glad for once she’s been mine.


screaming thoughts
On twist of faith I was brought to this stranger’s arms without hesitation on the consequences of such actions. Now in my confusion I’m asking myself: was my quest been concluded then or this is just the succession of one’s endeavor for another pursuit.
Sweet resentments still lingered in my heart that I find things hard to let go. But being cuddled warmly and pampered with such touch how can I be oblivious with it. Every embrace promises love and every kiss burns with such ardor unraveling within me making me forget that once I lay freezing in the sands on one cold night.
I feel like indulging if this is what being with him awaits me I want to kiss yesterday goodbye. Finally I was able to stop the madness that slowly wrecking me. If only he’ll give me enough time to rearrange everything so that I can wholly bestow thy heart that longed for and to love.
Is this for real maybe where just moving too fast….
It’s not easy to be me; it’s not easy to disregard a year of living a half-life. Hoping, chasing and dreaming that one-day you will be loved too. Waiting in vain. Giving and losing yourself at once. I’m aware he found it hard to know me as well.
Sometimes I’m blunt I hate the feeling of being helpless and vulnerable to someone. Cause when your weak people tend to take advantage of you. And when I’m on the verge of anger I breakdown and cry. Tears the remedy for pain.
But twice I’ve been save by the coldness of the night from terrible pain. I can’t bear the hurt but because of too much coldness I felt numb I wasn’t able to shed my tears.
Why such things had to happen, does everybody doesn’t want me to be happy? It must be me, I shall take the blame, the fault is my own. Everything is going in circles it’s happening again.
What a perfect setting: one rainy night I lay all my cards; I wasn’t hoping for anything just the end of this misery. Coldness surrounding me willing and ready to comfort me. Shall I tell you now? Or I’ll just continue torturing myself thinking of what the hell is going on with you?
Is this your definition of love? Then you haven’t loved at all. I tried on any level of comprehension a person can do, to understand you but how long does it going to be like this? If you no longer needed me in your life then please let me fly someone else might want to take care of me.
After all I alone made all the decisions for my actions and its evident that I shall be blame on the consequence of these. Sometimes you have to see yourself on a different angle to know your mistakes..